I just realized one of the heart
wrenching truth about me “I am addicted to my mobile and SMSing”. Of course
others would have found this truth about eons ago. I was in self denial to the
fact and pretending that I am normal J of course I am super
normal except for this trivial fact. Ok may be so trivial, until today.
Until today
I had not tried to keep my mobile out of my reach and not to answer any
messages. A sort of resolution to work hundred percent seriously, which it
didn’t emerge successful. My ears kept hoping for my own “tin tin” tone from my
mobile. My hands wouldn’t type on my laptop further, until I type a message to
someone. I hoped someone, someone from my
whole world to rescue me. I saw the clock with the anticipation of a new
mother, just 5 minutes had passed, my heart let out a sigh. Five minutes and I
already had started missing the love of my life. Oh Lord! Give Thy all the
strength to abstain thyself from temptations. Six minutes gone! In what despicable
mind did I challenge myself to a twenty minutes challenge!
Of course I
was not always like this. No, who am I kidding? I was always like this, not
always from the moment my dad got me a mobile. A “per day limit” on SMSes to
100 couldn’t stop me, as somehow God miraculously disabled that ban from my
mobile. Then later came all these SMS packs in thousands, there was no
stopping. But I have changed, I have reduced my texting, one shouldn’t overlook
that. Non availability of time, or ever answering friends or what I like the
best “my own maturity of age”, whatever may be the reason. I have reduced my
SMS counts for sure. Yet the addiction has not. Even if no one is messaging or
chatting, I tend to check my inbox every ten, sorry typo, one minute or lesser
if possible. Now officially proved!!! Am addicted…
So who
cares right? I care!!! Yeah since it is a clinical situation, you people cant
separate me from my mobile, am challenged J J
And I forgot to note the time crossing my twenty minute deadline. Or did i??
P.S: By the way, I had grabbed my mobile when you started
reading my third paragraph, at six minute past five seconds!!!
P.S (2) How I am gonna fight my clinical situation? That is
story for another post, keep waiting J
Love
LG